Humble Pie

Normally I really like pie.

But humble pie is a tad bitter.

It's good for me though.

It helps me rely on the Lord and it strengthens my faith.

Having a child with special needs has been a struggle.

I can't help but watch other babies that are the same age or even younger than my baby and see that they are doing all kinds of things that Finn isn't even close to doing.

I think often about how it would be if Finn could sit up, grab toys, or even hold his head up.

I resent it sometimes. Not my baby, but the situation itself.

But then I have to chase that feeling away because I know it's selfish.

During conference this weekend there was a talk given by Elder Robert D. Hales that really spoke to me.

He talked about what it means to be a Christian. 

He said, the call to be a Christian means to go beyond your comfort zone and do things that you never thought possible.

He even mentioned raising a child with special needs.

Whatever our calling is in life we must fulfill it.

I'll go where you want me to go.

I'll say what you want me to say.

I'll do what you want me to do.

I'll be what you want me to be.

Being Finn's mom is my calling in life.

God has asked that I take care of and raise this boy, it might not be easy, and Finn may have some struggles along the way but He knew I could do it and He knew that I would be the best person so raise this child, special needs and all.

I've willingly accepted this call to be his mom. I can't imagine doing anything else.

Finn is my whole world and I'll do everything I can to help him.

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